I don't know why, I have no luck in terms of LOVE??? I don't wanna believe it, but, it feels like love didn't care to find me.... Thinking of my past relationships is just a head ache! But then, this so I called special love came into my life sometime ago... and it still here even it breaks my heart a thousand times.. I believe in him, I care for him and I even look at him as my Prince! But, I am no longer his Princess as of this day, as I found out again the reality of this fairy tale story that I made to protect my feelings, turn into a nightmare... I never wanted to feel sorry for myself, but the pain is here and I need to wake up once more. Let him live with her real Princess and so I must close the door and move on... Maybe, I need to face the fact that as I give away this kind of feelings, I need to suffer a lot more. Sometimes, I don't know what to do? what to think of? or even what to feel for something I cannot have.... The more I love, the deeper it hurts...
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"I love you. I love you not because you're adorable or because you're sweet, or because you're my best friend. I love you because you make me step outside myself and look at who I really am. I can tell you absolutely everything and I know you will listen. And you're one of my best friends. But I will keep all of this to myself because I love you, but do you love me too?...I wish that I could make you love me, but I cannot. That is why these words will be forever lost in my memories, never to be spoken aloud: I love you." "There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how......
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There are many times in life when we badly want something or someone that we will probably never have, whether the fault lie on us, another person, or the circumstances surrounding it. Sometimes letting go of something is a very hard thing to do, especially if we never really got a chance to do things the way we wanted, because we think the situation might be different if we had the opportunity to try. Its hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of. You just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last, some don't even start.